Then there's the fact that everything at school is new. I mean NEW! I will be in a new building, with a new principal, going through a new phonics program as well as starting Great Expectations. I'm excited about all of it and I know change is sometimes good so I'm trying to look at this from an optimistic perspective. I keep thinking maybe all of this wouldn't seem so hard though if it didn't mean sending my own two children off to school. D will be starting Kindergarten this year. I believe this is going to be as hard as sending him to Pre-K for the first time. When did my baby boy grow up so quickly? The blessing in this however is that he has a wonderful teacher this year. I worked with her in one of our workshops this week and must say I immediately felt a peace come over me when she introduced herself to me and we got to talk.
L will begin her second year of daycare. No, I am still not thrilled with this situation and if I could change it I would, but I am thankful for it regardless. They do take good care of her and she is getting a lot of interaction with other children that she wouldn't have otherwise.
Have I mentioned how overwhelmed I am? I feel as if I am on a rollercoaster. One minute I am very excited about all of it. The next I am freaking out...How am I going to accomplish all I need to and still be a good mom/teacher?!
Thankfully the Bible has answers for this question:
- I can do everything through him who gives me strength. (Phillipians 4:13)
- I sought the Lord, and he answered me, and delivered me from all my fears." (Psalm 34:4)
- Those who seek the Lord lack no good thing. (Psalm 34:10b)
- When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears, and rescues them from all their troubles. (Psalm 34:17)
- My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken. (Psalm 62:1-2)
- Those of steadfast mind you keep in peace—because they trust in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for in the Lord God you have an everlasting rock. (Isaiah 26: 3-4)
- O Lord, my strength and my fortress, my refuge in time of distress. (Jeremiah 16:19)
- If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, "move from here to there," and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you. (Matthew 17:20)
- My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:9a)
I do this way too often. I let my fears and anxieties take over even when I know this is not the solution. These verses remind me however that I don't have to do it all on my own. God is more than strong enough and sufficient enough to help me take all of it on!!! So I will go from here with a different outlook. "The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust." (Psalm 18:2)
Praying for you as you get to the end of your first week. Hope all the wrinkles are smoothing out! Love you!
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