Mother's Day :P

I hate Mother's Day! (Bare with me...I have alot on my heart.)  There are so many reasons why but mostly for two reasons. One is because my heart aches with an undescribable pain for a woman who carried my son for 9 months and then made the difficult choice to let him go.  It always starts about a week or so before. I think of her everyday but more so about that time.  In my head I unwillingly put myself in her shoes and consider what she must have gone through.  What she must be going through now.  And my heart hurts.  It hurts because she and many other women must face this day wondering, so full of questions about the baby they placed in the care of strangers, the baby they never held, and have never met.  I on the other hand have received the joy every day watching him grow up to be a sweet, tenderhearted, thoughtful young man (almost, gulp!).  I laugh with him, play with him, teach him, give him hugs and kisses (when he let's me), and know him.  Everyday!  and I'm thankful to be called Mom by him.  I'm thankful for everyday I have with him.  No I don't know her heart or what she thinks about this day.  I've never even met her, but in my heart I imagine she is hurting and I hate that for her!  
I also hate MD because there are women out there who've yet to hold a baby of their own in their arms or may never be a mom but long to be with a longing that makes me hate this day even more.  They must get out of bed and face this day with a courage and strength only God can provide and even then it's not easy.  There's stuff all over the place to remind them of their pain.  It's not easy to escape it on MD...trust me! 
Our God is good, he is sovereign, knows what's best and has a plan for each life.  I know he does.  He's continually showed me that...it's a lesson I seem to have to learn over and over again, but this is not a happy day for every girl.  I know most people won't understand but please try to be sensitive when you post on fb/twitter/social media.  Please be prayerful for them.  And don't just pray for them today, but everyday!  Despite all the happy mother's you see remember there are many hurting in secret.   They would rather crawl under a rock than face this day!  I've been in at least one of these places personally and I understand.  And although I have my children, MD is still hard for me.  I can't forget these women and my prayer is that if you're reading this you won't either!